Been having problems saying no lately. For example, yesterday, at Tech Squares, I got roped into the review session despite really not wanting to. I need to watch some of the patterns in order to learn. Doing is sometimes a negative, because I’m re-enforcing bad habits, or uncertainty. As a result, I didn’t have much fun yesterday. This despite having partners that I really enjoy dancing with for most every tip. Mind you, I didn’t get to dance with the broom… no offence to my actual partner.
Another club dancer was mentioning how they enjoy dancing with cute people. In thinking about this, I realize that I enjoy dancing with good / fun dancers. Then, I thought… hey, they’re all cute after all. More thinking… they’re not cute by my normal preferences… I’ve just classified them into cute because they are fun to dance with. Interesting the way the / my mind works.
While we’re on the topic, this article about Geek Social Fallacies is pretty interesting. I think my inability to say no is a facet / contributing factor to my having some of the traits mentioned.
I think that my mild OCD cleaning may be an adverse reaction to how materialistic / cluttered my life has become.
Though not religious, I wouldn’t necessarily shirk away from the label spiritual. I’ve always leaned towards reincarnation as my afterdeath opiate. Lately, that tendency has been solidifying. Among other things, I’ve had the following thoughts / feelings:
- For every spider I kill, I am going to have to relive it’s life, literally or metaphorically, until I atone.
- I don’t have a whole life ahead of me to do things, I have a plethora.
[...] I’ve already mentioned this article about Geek Social Fallacies. [...]